On Being Bionic

These days I have medical devices attached to my body 24/7 because of my diabetes. I like to think of it as being bionic.
 
I first started using the term bionic when my husband got his pacemaker. “Needing a machine to stay alive” left him feeling frail and unhappy. I told him, “Hey, this just means you’re now my bionic man!” He liked that. It was a more positive way to think about the medical device. And if I waggle my eyebrows when I say “meet my husband, he’s bionic,” he likes it even more (and it usually gets a chuckle). I have friends with artificial knees, shoulders, and hips. Others have artifical heart valves or spinal disks. So many of us boomers are going bionic these days.
 
Now I’m bionic too–sort of. While his bionics are surgically implanted, mine are removable–but I think they should still count.
 
First I got a Continuous Glucous Monitor (CGM). This wireless device checks my blood sugar every 5 seconds and displays a graph on a remote display unit about the size of a cell phone. The part actually on my body is the size of a pack of gum cut in half (crosswise). It has a needle that is angled under my skin, and a patch of adhesive tape that holds it on. I have to replace it and change the location every seven days. Of course I still have to do a finger stick when it’s time to take insulin. But the CGM also displays a trend arrow that lets me know if my blood sugar is climbing, dropping, or level. It also indicates how fast the level is changing. Very useful information. In the mornings I can look at the readings for the previous 12 hours to see if I had any peaks or valleys while I was sleeping.
 
The newest addition to my personal technology is an insulin pump. Before the pump I had to inject myself with insulin four or more times a day. The injections had to be given in my abdomen (and the locations rotated to prevent scarring). I had to avoid the area around my navel and my appendicitis scar. Sometimes the shot would nick a capillary and I’d end up with a lovely blue and green bruise. The pump is a device that looks remarkably like a cell phone. It’s attached by tiny clear tubing to an injection set on my abdomen. The injection set has a plastic canula inserted under my skin instead of a needle. The set is the size of a quarter. The tubing plugs in to the set and can be unplugged temporarily, like for a shower. Guys clip their pumps on their belt, or tuck it in a pocket. I find it more convenient to clip it to the middle front of my bra.
 
The pump comes with a remote control that also functions as a Blood Glucose meter (for finger sticks). So now I can sit in a meeting and give myself a dose of insulin, and as far as anyone else can tell, I’m just texting. The injection set is only good for two or three days, so I have to change it every other day (moving it to a new site). The pump only holds 200 units of insulin, so every couple of days I have to refill it. That involves special cartidges and insulin vials–more complicated than the pens I used before, but with the advantage of not requiring a poke in my belly for each dose. The pump also gives a background dose (“basal dose”) throughout the day, which mimics the way the pancreas works (at least the way it works for non-diabetics).
 
I’m getting better at filling the cartridges right (without creating air bubbles) the first time, and at holding the injection set dispenser at just the right angle so the canula goes under my skin instead of skidding across the surface. Of course now I have to be “wanded” at security gateways. Anything with magnetic fields might muck with the programming of the pump–which would not be a good thing. If I should need to get a CAT scan or MRI, I’d have to just temporarily remove the pump and CGM and adjust my doses afterwards.
So “I sing the body electric” for real now.
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Initial Success

This entry won third place in the Aspiring Writers contest for the first half of January 2012. The genre was fiction: suspense, theme: first day on the job, highlight: an email you received in error. Length: 600-715 words.

Natalie was glad to finally be actually on the job. She’d had almost two days of site orientation, safety training, security training, and computer security training, before being allowed to go to her new office. She still had to wait for her security clearance to come through, but the company had fast-tracked her accounts, so a sealed envelope containing her username and temporary password was waiting on her desk. 

Her computer was already booted up and waiting for her to enter her username and password. Once she did, Outlook launched automatically. There was a stream of routine emails waiting, from the cafeteria, the library, and other departments. One message was titled “Need your approval ASAP”.  Probably the Savings Plan or United Way Natalie thought, clicking on the message.

“Ned, we need to move two kilograms of plutonium from the basement lab in building 25-J to the testing facility in the northwest corner, first floor, of building 3-L. Please advise, soonest. –Bob.” 

That was definitely not routine. Those buildings were not inside the classified area. What on earth were they doing with plutonium, much less with it outside the fence? That email message was a clear security violation. The  systems geeks were going to have a time purging the unclassified system..She wondered who Ned was. In the company directory she found Ned James Dunne.  Her own username was NJD, for Natalie Jasmine Donner. Ned was in X division — which meant his work was classified.  

The training she had just received labeled this as both a security incident and a computer security incident, to be reported to her division’s security and computer security officers ASAP. Natalie wondered which one she should call first, but looking at the little orange card of emergency numbers, found that both positions were filled by the same person, Kevin Centrella. She dialed his number. 

“Hello, Kevin?” she said timidly, “My name is Natalie Donner, I’m a new hire and I just got an email that looks like a computer security violation and, um, a security violation too.”

“Really?” a man’s voice said, sounding bored, “why don’t you tell me what it says, WITHOUT mentioning any of the words that you think make it a violation.”

“Okay,” she said, “It was sent to me by mistake, from somebody named Bob, asking permission of someone named Ned,  to move a specific quantity of a particular material from one location to another”

“This material,” the man asked, not sounding as bored now, “would it be a controlled substance? Don’t say the name!” 

“Yes, it is definitely a controlled substance,” she replied, “and one that is not supposed to be in either of the locations mentioned.”

 ”Okay,” he said, all business now, “You did the right thing. Stay where you are until I get there. Turn your monitor off, but leave the computer on. Close your blinds and your office door, and don’t let anyone in.”

She did what he said, then sat down to wait. She had a feeling “Bob” was going to be in big trouble.  Checking her watch, she saw it was after eleven. She was supposed to join Suzanne at noon for a meet-and-greet with the rest of the group, but that wasn’t looking likely.

Kevin knocked, displaying his badge before entering. He turned her monitor back on and did a flurry of typing, while making cryptic comments over the phone. Finally, he hung up and grinned at Natalie, “Welcome aboard, you passed the final test.”

“Test? This was a test?”

“Of course,” Kevin said firmly, “it was the final test of your training. You don’t think we actually have plutonium wandering around the facility, do you?”

Natalie didn’t know what to say. Kevin headed for the door, “You’re on the network for real now. If you hurry, you can still make that lunch.”

The group was just getting their food when she arrived. “Hey, Nat,” Suzanne said, “you missed all the excitement!”

“Yeah,” a dark-haired young man chimed in, “the guards came in and dragged some guy right out of the food line.”

“That was Bob,” said a new voice from behind her. “Nice to meet you, Natalie. I’ve heard a lot about you. I’m Ned Dunne. As soon as your clearance comes through, you’ll be working for me.”

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House Rules

We all have house rules, although we may not think of them that way. House rules are the ways we do things at OUR house. Our house means our rules. We don’t care how you do things at your house. If you are visiting our house, you need to play by our rules. After all, we abide by your rules when we visit your house. This is an implied social contract between adults.

This should work between all responsible adults, if it weren’t for one thing–the parent-child relationship. When mama comes to visit, she wants to use HER house rules in our house, because she is the parent. And when sonny visits mama, he wants to use HIS rules in her house to show he is grown up now.

It’s not like the competing house rules are major differences, they are mainly irritations. Are potholders left out on the counter so they can be grabbed quickly, or stashed in drawers so that the counters are bare and neat? Are dirty glasses left on the counter next to the sink where they look messy, or set down in the sink where they will get knocked over and broken? Are towels washed after every use, or kept out because you just had a shower and you were drying a clean body? Do you put floor pillows next to bookcases so you can sit to look through the bottom shelf, or do you think only people who can’t afford chairs would put pillows on the floor?

We don’t have conflicts over rules like these when we are visiting friends, even if they are from a different generation. It’s only when it’s a parent or child that it becomes a problem. Can we get past the family baggage and treat each other like adults? To be successful, both sides would have to agree. This is not something that can be fixed by only one party changing their behavior.

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The Best Present Ever

This memoir took second place in the Aspiring Writiers December Competition.

Once upon a time, toys were few, and mostly handmade. Imagination was what made them fun. In “Little House in the Big Woods”, set in the 1800s, Laura Ingalls has a doll that is just a corncob wrapped in a handkerchief. She is envious of her sister Mary’s homemade rag doll. For lower income families, that type of toy persisted into the 1950′s.  Surveying ladies in their fifties to seventies, I heard a lot of stories about homemade dolls. Often the dolls were made from perishable, seasonal materials.

A twig with properly spaced branches became a doll with arms, to be dressed in leaves or flowers. Hollyhocks or daylilies made lovely skirts for these dolls. Some girls used old style clothespins instead of twigs as the base for their dolls. A handkerchief could be wrapped over a marble or cotton ball and a rubber band or wrapping of thread used to create a neck. Then the corners were knotted to make the hands and feet of a simple doll. Old socks were also made into dolls, like the infamous sock monkey.

In girls scouts, I learned how to make tiny dolls out of pipe cleaners. They were formed like a stick figure, then the head finished by filling the loop with a cotton ball covered by a scrap of hosiery. Embroidery thread was used for the dolls’ hair. I built houses for them out of shoe boxes. Empty spools were turned into chairs, matchboxes were stacked to be chests of drawers. I learned to cut and fold pieces of pasteboard to make other furniture.

When my chore was washing dishes, I used to pretend the flatware pieces were characters in a fairy tale. The spoons were females, the knives and forks were males. The tablespoons were the queen and married ladies of the court, the teaspoons were the princesses. The potato peeler was the hostage princess from another country, with the long and narrow face. I’d make up stories about which ones were friends and which were fighting, and place them in different slots of the dish drainer based on the story of the night.

If I had access to paper, then I made paper dolls. I was given a cardboard Barbie cutout for a birthday present. That launched a flurry of fashion design. My friends and I would trace the cardboard cutout to draw complete wardrobes, that we colored with crayons. We never bothered to cut out the clothing to put on the doll, we just had pages that represented the closet of the doll. We’d make sets of outfits, complete with accessories for imaginary trips.

When we didn’t have any blank paper, I’d page through the Sears catalog and make up stories about the models. Each page became a new chapter in their adventures.

Today, my brothers and I all agree that the best present ever was a big roll of paper Daddy brought home. The three foot wide roll was carbon-backed, with a second layer of plain paper. We did lots of tracings of comic book characters, reordering the images to make new stories. My brothers would cut out their tracings and have battles using the paper characters.

Only imagination could turn a simple roll of carbon paper into the best present ever.

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Curiosity Kills

This is the winning entry from the November Aspiring Writers Competition. The constraints were, genre:Murder Mystery, theme: Thanksgiving, focus: Body in a Closet, limit: 715 words. The year’s winners will be published in an anthology by Lebrary.

When I found out that my husband Steve was to interview billionaire Paul Bannister AND that we were invited for Thanksgiving dinner, I was in heaven! Sylvia Bannister’s wardrobe was legendary, and now I could sneak an up close peek at it.  Steve always warned me that my habit of “closet snooping” would get me in trouble some day. This was the day. When I opened the double closet doors, I saw . . . Sylvia. Her dress was lovely, a daring print that set off her blond hair, but it didn’t do a thing for the darkening blue bruises around her neck.

Steve was covering the series of murders attributed to the “society strangler”.  The police were baffled. The killings always took place at private events. None of the servants or catering staff were present at all the events. And although there was considerable overlap in the guest lists, all the guests had alibis for at least one of the murders. The surviving spouses, normally prime suspects,  had rock solid alibis.  Steve’s editor wanted a piece on how the elite kept their spirits up in the holiday season, knowing that they, or rather their wives (for the strangling victims were all female) were being stalked by a killer. Not that the men were safe, for in a few cases male guests had been stabbed. Police suspected those victims had interrupted  the killer.

“Ah, here she is,” Steve said as I tried to sidle back into the room unnoticed, ” so, did you sneak into Sylvia’s closet, or finally ASK for a tour?” He laughed. I flushed with embarrassment as everyone turned to stare at me. Great, he was going to get me killed with his big mouth.

“Uh, no, I , uh, couldn’t find her,” I stammered, “I got all turned around and gave up. Is she here?” I looked around the scattered crowd of guests as if I expected to see her. The men were all drinking and laughing. The few women looked grim. None of the guests looked like they were hiding a secret yen to strangle women. Although, taking another look, I realized that the group of men included the husbands of all the women who had been killed.  And if I was not mistaken, the widows of the stabbed men were also all present. What a creepy gathering.

I pulled Steve aside. “Sylvia is dead,” I whispered, “I found her in the closet, strangled — what should we do?”

“Just keep quiet,” he whispered back, “I’ll handle it.” I felt as grim as the other women looked. I was relieved when our host announced dinner was ready.  The guests slowly filed into the dining room, finding seats designated by engraved place cards. To my dismay, I was between two of the widowers, with Steve at the other end of the long table.

There was one empty seat — Sylvia’s. As the guests began to murmur, Steve stood up. “Ladies and gentlemen, our late hostess will not be joining us. My wife went snooping in Sylvia’s closet and found her body. Sylvia has been strangled, and her murderer must be one of the people at this table.” The murmuring stopped as  Steve walked slowly around the table, to rest his hands on the shoulders of our host. “Paul here has an alibi,” he said, “he was in plain sight of the entire group all evening.”  He walked on to stand opposite me. “In fact, the only ones who left the group — besides Sylvia, that is — were my nosy wife, and Charles.” He pointed to the man seated on my right.

I scrambled to get up, and away from Charles, who I assumed was Sylvia’s murderer. But the man seated on my left grabbed me by the arms. Paul had also gotten to his feet and was donning surgical gloves. “We’d all like to thank Steve for organizing our little collaboration. It took detailed planning to be sure that we all had alibis when our spouses were killed. After all, what reason would Charles here, have to kill my wife Sylvia, if not as payback for Steve killing his wife? And now for Steve’s reward.”

 I could hear the guests applauding softly as Paul closed his hands around my throat.

 

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Are Stories Metal or Wood?

Jeffrey Forker posed this question on LinkedIn, after hearing two friends argue about the mechanics of writing. Apparently one referred to “tightening down the screws” on a story, and the other retorted “bolts”. That really got me thinking about how I write and edit, and whether my own stories are metal or wood.

The Case for Wood: Some stories grow organically. They spring into your mind fully formed and you just have to write fast enough to capture them. Others just sprout and you have to nurture their growth and see where they go. Then there are the stories that come from seasoned timbers. You spot the thread of the story in the grain and carefully follow it. You may chisel out a rough shape at first, but the longer you work on the wood, the more detailed you get. You carve out subplots and lovingly sand and oil them. These stories start long and broad and get whittled down to their essence. You go back to them time and again, adding another incised flourish, or smoothing a rough spot. You revel in how they warm with age, developing that soft glow that says they will be classics.

The Case for Metal: Sometimes you try to create a story by pouring the words into a mold that someone else has created. The hot flow chills and hardens and you can see it is not your design. So you hammer it into a different shape and weld on new pieces. You battle with the story, trying to force it into the shape you want. Plots will be straightforward, but with unexpected angles and occasional sharp points. Whatever you do, it will be strong. How it ages depends on whether you preserve it, like a fly in amber — as a curiosity to be viewed in detachment from the world — or let it rust naturally and enjoy the new designs that flaws create in the patina.

For me, the division of stories into wood or metal has much more to do with the writing than with the reading. It is the author who determines the type. Ironically, one of my most “metal” stories has a plot that centers around woodworking. Another story that is science fiction and has nothing but metal, glass, and plastic in its setting, is very much “wood” in my estimation.

I have places for both metal and wood stories in my writings, what about you? 

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Let’s Celebrate Creativity

This is a good time of year to celebrate creativity. First came Halloween, where people strive to be creative in their costumes, yard decorations, and treats. My favorites are the “scavenger hunt” costumes, where people decide at the last minute to create a costume from whatever is available around their home or office. Those costumes save money and are usually quite clever.

The flurry of assuming disguises and alter egos is a worthy lead in to November, which is National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo). It is a challenge to write 50,000 words in 30 days. There are write-ins and word wars and odd challenges to include in your novel. All those minds, worldwide, creating at once — you have to feel the energy! Then Thanksgiving, where a lot of creativity goes into making that one ultimate meal.

Which brings us to December, a month dedicated to celebrating creation and birth. But there are also lots of secular opportunities for creativity in December. From decorating the yard, to decorating the house, people make creative choices. Even cookies are decorated in December. And many people are right now racking their brains to come up with creative ideas for gifts.

These tough economic times are the perfect opportunity to go retro and come up with handmade gifts — gifts from the heart. Consider donations to charity in the name of your family members.  Record bedtime stories to be played to nieces and nephews. Use simple sewing techniques to make a festive apron or potholder. Gather pinecones and melt candle wax over them to make fire starters. Give children thick pads of drawing paper and the BIG box of crayons. Make mood-setting mix tapes (CD’s or files for iPods) for: relaxation, energizing, party time, exercise, and romance. Collect favorite family recipes and record them on neat new cards to send to the college students and newlyweds. There are hundreds of other things you can do to show your love without spending a lot of money.

Go forth and be creative!

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Strange Weather

This has been an unusual year for weather (I include natural phenomena under the “weather” umbrella). We’ve had an earthquake and a hurricane in the same week. We’ve had the appearance of a rare red display of the Aurora Borealis far below the Mason-Dixon line. Now we have snow in October, with the leaves still on the trees.

My yard has red and yellow maples coated with snow, next to a still green leafed cherry tree, which is BLOOMING.  Earlier in the week, we were still in the 70′s and I was wearing sleeveless tops to work. Now the sun is shining and the snow is now melting as well as sublimating, and I still have bulbs to plant for spring. 

So, what does all this mean? My MIL thinks these are all signs we are in “end times”, and she hasn’t even seen all the stories about the Mayan Calendar. But why does it have to mean anything? Times change, and weather changes also. Our world is changing — warming, shivering, stretching. Our oceans are changing, and many of those changes are due to bad decisions we humans have made. 

There is that island of plastic that has gathered in the Pacific from trash carelessly discarded. Of course, it’s really not fair to call it an island. Sitting on a boat in the midst of it, you might not even notice the material. But there is a bigger, denser, true island of debris washed to sea by the tsunamis in Japan. Yes, the debris is man-made, but it being in the ocean is due to Nature. Will the two masses merge? Or will the debris island wash up on California shores in years to come?

Whatever happens, we will weather the changes. That’s what we do as humans, that is our strength. We adapt. But that shouldn’t mean that we just accept the changes. We’ve shown that we can alter our world; why don’t we try making it better. It’s almost Halloween. How about for Trick or Treat, we Treat the Earth — do just one thing to make it better. Recycle our plastic, pick up litter, plant some bulbs. Would that be so strange?

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Tips for Newbies: Making Your Characters Believable

What do you do to make your characters three-dimensional, so they seem real to the reader?  One key is to think about the characters’ lives BEFORE they enter your plotline.  Sure,  every author comes up with names and physical descriptions, but you need to go beyond that.

What do your characters do for a living? Think how your plot might affect their job, their normal schedule. Are they night owls or early risers? Think about how they spend their leisure time — whether they have hobbies, or belong to any clubs or civic organizations. Think about their health, and whether they have an exercise program or sports activities. Do they take any medications? vitamins? Think about where they shop, what sorts of foods they like to eat, whether they cook for themselves or not, what pet peeves they have, whether they take a daily newspaper. Filling in a lot of little details about their lives helps make the characters real for YOU, so you can make them real for your reader.

Think about your characters’ personal style, in clothing, in decorating their living space, or their work space, if applicable. Are they neat freaks or clutter bugs? Do they have pets? houseplants? Do they recycle?  Give them a vehicle that helps reflect their personality traits.  Think about how they use technology, whether they are Mac people or PC people or total Luddites.     

If your characters enjoy listening to music, describe what type of music. Think about whether they pick vinyl, CDs, or ipods, or just go with whatever is on the radio. Is there a type of music they don’t like? Think about how they’d react to telemarketing calls, and whether they are good tippers. What are their favorite TV shows — sitcoms, documentaries, cooking shows? Do they read? If so, who are their favorite authors? Think about giving your villain a soft spot, and giving your hero an annoying trait. Don’t make your characters perfect, make them REAL.

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Colin’s Crossing

This piece won 2nd place in the September Flash Fiction contest in LinkedIn’s Aspiring Writers group, with the paramenters: Historical Fiction, theme: Coming to America, Focus: Uncle Ed’s Store, word limit: 715.

Colin huddled into the smallest ball possible and snuffled back tears as he watched the sailors dump his cousin Brian overboard. Colin didn’t risk a peek over the railing; he didn’t want to see if sharks were still following the ship. A coffin ship, Uncle called it.

The first omen came one week out of Liverpool, when passengers did not get the promised weekly seven pounds  of food. Next the daily water ration was cut from three quarts to one. Uncle Eamonn had pulled out his strange haversack, which was a wooden cabinet with doors and drawers and bunches of sacks hooked to the sides.  He said that Eamonn was his Irish name, but in America he would be called Edward, Ed for short. The haversack, he dubbed “Uncle Ed’s store”.  Opening a small drawer, he pulled out smooth pebbles for the two boys to hold in their mouths against thirst. “I soaked these fine pebbles in the clearest, purest river in all Ireland,” he declared, “feel the coolness and let it soak into your mouths.” Somehow that  did make them less thirsty, between the pints that were doled out four times a day.

Hordes of Irish were emigrating, fleeing the Great Hunger. Colin remembered the bridge of tears where he bid farewell to his mum.  Gram had gone into one of her spells and had grabbed Colin’s arm and crooned:

“From Kerry ye come, but Cork ye must be
to voyage with Eamonn across the blue sea
in gets ye out, and out gets ye in
if ye but stay down for a full count of ten”

Colin did come from County Kerry, but the rest made no sense to him. Uncle shook his head, warning Colin not to question the prophecy, so Colin put it out of his mind.

Colin’s own sister Eilis had emigrated first, her passage paid by an indentured contract as a domestic. She had saved up to send Colin’s fare.  But crossing conditions had worsened in spite of the 1842 Passenger Act. Colin shared his berth (a wooden box six feet long and a scant eighteen inches wide) with Uncle and Brian, each taking eight hours to rest. At least they had an upper berth, so they didn’t have to suffer noxious drippings from above.

Uncle Ed had encouraged the boys to sneak up on deck as much as possible, for the fresh air. Whenever allowed, he sluiced them down with buckets of cold seawater, especially after other passengers started dying of the fever. When the boys were groaning from hunger, Ed dug in the “store” and found  stringy pieces of leather that he bade them chew. He must have earlier soaked the leather in some kind of broth, because a pleasant flavor was released, and chewing it calmed their stomachs.

But there was nothing in Uncle Ed’s store to help when Brian got the fever.  Colin was ordered away, and found a hidden spot on deck where he huddled and cried.  He was still hidden when the cook and carpenter came up to get some fresh air.

“We’re sure to be quarantined,” the cook said, “just like the last run.”

“Aye,” agreed the carpenter, ” we’ll probably get loose after a few days, but those poor buggers below decks will be penned up for weeks.”

“Good thing we’re paid in advance, not on delivery!” the cook said, “won’t many of this bunch make it, especially the women and  children.”

Colin waited till they were gone, then scurried to tell Uncle.  The grim look on Ed’s face almost scared Colin. “Can ye swim boy?” he asked.

“Aye,” Colin answered, “like a right cork.”

“A cork?” his uncle began, “now I understand your Gram’s warning.  Listen carefully.” Uncle described a bold plan and swore Colin to obey it exactly.

When they neared port, Colin was crouched in hiding, watching for the closest point of land. Ed shouted “In gets ye out”, and Colin dove over the side, swimming underwater “for a full count of ten” .

Finally dry,  after hiding two days and nights, Colin snuck  to the docks. Food was everywhere,  more than he’d ever seen. Someone tossed him an apple, “Eat, boy!”  He looked up to see Eamonn, Uncle Ed,  smiling, “Out gets ye in! Welcome to America!”

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